"It is something," Jack said, "and I'm not... I'm not that broken up about it, not really. He's my friend, he loves me, he's still in my life. I can be happy with that. It's just... it's just not being able to talk about it. My family knows him, and they'd probably tell him, just because they want me to be happy. Ordinarily I'd tell my best friend but that's Felix." He inhaled, stretched up towards the ceiling. "Just saying it... it makes me feel better."